Well, the day finally arrived. We had our radiation consult yesterday. The out come was disheartening. We knew it would take around 6 weeks, five days a week. We didn't exactly know how long per day it would be but had an idea.
We had no way of knowing what the radiologist was going to say. Both of us were shocked. My wife's heart dropped. Me I laughed. I knew it wasn't going to be this easy just to get appointments set up and go from there. But noooo! it had to be difficult. I feel like we are cursed or something.
So, the radiologist comes in. She asked a few questions. We asked her a few. Then the news. Since my tumor was located at the base of my brain stem. She didn't feel comfortable doing the "Normal" type radiation. She wants to send me to Flint! yes, Flint to get Radiation called Protons Radiation. It's supposed to be more direct without damaging anymore tissue as the normal Radiation. They did get 85% of the tumor. But what was left, was close to my brain stem so the neurologist didn't try to remove more. He didn't want to do more damage than what was done.
Now we know why it's taking me forever to heal. Somedays are better than others. It seems as if I am going backwards instead of forward. My balance is horrible. I can't walk on my own yet. My face and vocal cords are still messed up. Although my speech is getting a little better. My eyesight and hearing seem to be getting worse. I don't know what to think anymore. Sometimes I feel like throwing in the towel. It seems like nothing is going the way it is supposed to. Yes, depression really hitting me bad right now. I will just have to keep praying to God everything will work out.
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